Having some time on my hands after a very busy summer that has consisted of nearly losing my father and taking care of my injured girlfriend, I figured it would be a great time to clear my head and allow myself the opportunity to digest the developments of the last six weeks.
Slowing down and clearing my schedule has allowed me to grasp what has happened and how I feel about it. I've also thought about my future, which I am at a crossroads on: I may continue my education or I may put it on hold. The balance of the question is weighed on my conscience very heavily. I feel burned out like I have never felt before; I want to quit. I am not happy with my new university. My professors weren't enthusiastic about teaching, the university is very expensive and there are a lot of students. I am used to small schools with >5,000 students, now I am at a university more than six times that size and I feel overwhelmed, anxious, nervous, and distracted. I sort of lost motivation half-way through my previous fall semester but I trudged on and on through the spring only to find myself anxious to get away from classes.
I feel like I can't quit though. It feels wrong and ultimately foregoing even one semester may be a bad decision for my future. I am a person and I want to think like one and have a good conscience but school is really sapping my strength. But would I be better off without continuing my education? I really don't know. I am already in the thick of things so I might as well continue, right?
I would love to write about the economy or my country here, and I will but I won't go too deep. My biggest concern lies with the incessant greed of both politicians and big business. Any sort of good-will and testament to human thrift and welfare is but smashed into a million bludgeoning machetes the size of grains of sand. Our rights are swiftly being stripped, thrown, and burned into the black hole that is paranoia. Our great nation was never so great. We became a superpower because of who we conquered, of what we stole from others, and out of a terrible lack of wisdom and foresight. If we were founded by God, we were destroyed by the devil himself.
In technical terminology we are still the one and only superpower, but the near-future reveals we are to become but a relic of great times past, and a haven for the bloodthirsty and wicked... another Babylon if you will.
Lincoln warned of it, Eisenhower cautioned it, Washington foresaw it, and thousands of men and women from older times predicted it.
Mike Rowe, from the show "Dirty Jobs" put our current situation into perfect context and clarity: "We are lending money we don't have to kids who can't pay it back to train them for jobs that no longer exist." Pretty cool eh?! The worst part of it all is that we all see it, we all know it, but were still apathetic and hopeful that change will happen... but it doesn't! We see all of our freedoms, liberties, and wealth vanish before our eyes! We have incredibly smart and hardworking people in this great nation but they are not the voices heard. Reason is not what the politician is paid for. We are a den of thieves! Woe to our government for they have abandoned us! What are we students supposed to do? We have no jobs, we have no money! We want to better ourselves and our nation but we can't afford the cost of an education! If we can't have an education what are we to do? How are we going to progress as a nation? How are we going to lead? We cannot construct new buildings without money! We cannot sustain a powerful army if we have no science to support it!
China is overwhelmingly the victor as of today. They have money and place a high emphasis on education! Though they are just as, if not more corrupt than us, the different lies in their dreams! They are up and coming, full of hope; motivated, driven, and eager to show the world their power! We are demoralized, upset, paranoid, fearful, and have no dreams! It's the government stupid!
